Me and my interesting life!!

I hate my job... I mean I REALY FUCKING HATE MY JOB!!!! My boss has always said to me that he wants me to go to school... YEAH RIGHT! I was so close to the cashier in the book store with the book that I NEED for my class and he comes in and tells me to get out of line and get to work... There is nuthing to do and everyone elece gets to leave and disapear off the face of the earth but he comes and serches for me! I feel like he is punishing me for what my mom did. I had nuthing to do with her going to the higher ups about my raise. I did nuthing wrong but he can't do anything to her so he makes me suffer... I hate it here... I really hope that I get the job with the collage....

Ok, last night my mom go so mad at me. I asked Danita to help me with my taxes so I can get financial aid, and my mom blew! I don't think I did anything wrong. I just wanted to get things done. She said that she felt like her baby is being taken away, just because D helped me. I hate this, she is being so damn dramatic. Shes so busy helping my youngest brother Jacob get ready for China that I feel like she has no time for me. She doesn't ask me about anything. She just expects me to come running to her asking questions and telling her about what I have to do, when I know that she really doesn't have the time. I know she doesn't know what to do cuz she has never done it before. That is why I went to someone who knows. She works all day and so do I. It was supposed to be a learning experience for the both of us, but shes to busy. At least thats how I feel anyway. She didn't have to lash out at me. She could have just told me that she wants to do this with me and put the effort into it, and things would have been better. My eyes hurt so bed because all the crying I did. There all puffy and red. I so did not get enough sleep last night. I did not wanna get up. I was late for work so I have to take a half an hour lunch. Just all this SUCKS! But I have to look on the bright side. Marty is proud of me and so is D and Rachael. I know I can do this. I WILL GO TO COLLAGE!!!!

Ok Lizzie this one is just for you!!!!

So first things first.... I'm gonna go to Collage! I registered for orentation and I'll be signing up for classes in the next week or so. I so can't wait!!! I'm so happy that I finally did it! I'm not gonna sign up for anything to big. I'm just gonna get my feet wet and see where I would like to go. Marty is so proud of me and so is my mom! She's doing everything she can to help me get ready! Oh and last weekend I went to Collin Michigan (the Magic capital of the world!) Marty is gonna be doing a documentary on magic for his documentary class. So we went there to see if we can set up some interviews. This next weekend is the Abbott's magic thingie... whitch is a bunch of magicians come from all over the place to cratic and share new magic tricks! So Marty is gonna go to that one cuz I have to work firday and thats when it is. I also met Martys Gandpa and Aunt that sunday! His Grandpa reminded me of mine. His Aunt adored me. She said that I was so nice and pretty. His Grandpa was hitting on me the hole time we were helping move things out of storage. It was cute! Oh and this weeked I'm gonna cut my hair again cuz in just 3 months it grew back like 4 inches!!!...or so.. Witch is really fast! ummmm... what elece.... Oh. I'm still trying to help Marty get a job so we can move in together. I need to get out of my house! The dogs are driveing me nutz! They have to go downstairs when they come in from outside... and the past few days its been really muddy outside, so they go into my room and get mud everywhere! I hate it! I don't have a door so I can't keep them out when I'm not home, and no body wants to do anything for anyone elece in the house. So I have no choice but to have a muddy room untill I can aford to buy a gate or move out. Life at work now sucks. D is trying to find another job, because Derek is just so damn anoying. He's driveing her away, and then I'm gonna be the only girl st this sight again.... I can't do that! So either I need to start looking for another job, or I need to find another girl to work here with me. I joined a gym. The YMCA... its right by my work and Marty's house. Its such a nice place. It has a really big pool and its fun to work out with Marty. He keeps me motivated. I need to loose the waight I gained. Well thats all I can think of to tell ya. If I come up with more then I'll update again!
xoxo =^-^=

So I met Marty's gandma. That was fun! She is a very sweet old lady... she seemed confused alot of the time but waht can you do... getting old sucks! hee hee Well I'm haveing a ok start of the week... Dee is gone and now I am the only girl left at this sight. I don't like it... I don't really have anyone to talk to now... =( I want my Marty! He would make me feel better here... Ugg. Oh well... Me and my mom are getting along great! I love her so much! We have some down times but they arnt as bad as before! Martha is still at it. Trying to take GiGi away from us. But its not gonna work! But Yeah! Marty's mom invited me to go down to Texas for Christmas! I would love to go as long as I can get back in time for Chistmas morning with my family! I will update more later!

Well I just have been ok. I have been doing better at work with the time and all. But I don't like the new people that I work with... They get on my nerves!!!! I just think that the site is gonna go down-hill when everyone leaves. Danita is leaving me next friday! She gonna have her baby soon! Woot! and Marty and I are doing great! We have our moments but doesn't everyone? I love him with all my heart! On Wednesdays I say the night at his house so I can get to work on time. And my MOM IS ACTUALLY LETTING ME STAY THE NIGHT THERE!!! so yeah my life is going ok for now. Halloween was fun. I got to see lizzie and I got to dress up at work. I passed out candy too! Well right now Jen and Dereck are haveing a Windex fight and he lost. She can do what me and D can't. GO JEN!!!!!!!!! She jumped over the counter and got him so damn good! well I have to go so I'll write later!

Well there isnt a hole lot of things going on.... I'm going to Ohio Wed. and Marty get to come with me!! I'm sooo fricken happy!!!! Woot! *dose dances* hee hee hee well ok at least I got that out of my system.... there is nuthin really new going on in my life.... I just wanted to update cuz I havent in a while.... so yeah I really dont know what to say so I'm just rambleing on and on...... well buh bye now!

So I dont know what to say... nuthing interesting has happened lately. OH! I get to go see my Grandparents on the 23rd of this month!!! woot! I'm soo happy! And Marty might be able to come! I so want him to meet my family... cuz I really do love him and I want to hopefully marry him one day! But there are some obsticles to overcome for him to go with me. First off his mom has to say that he can come. Second he has to have around $100.00 so he can help pay for the hotel and his amusement park ticket, and some gas but not much.... on second thought I'll pay for gas. I just need some help paying. and then we have to see if he can skip the first day of class so he can go. Cuz we wont be back untill friday night and his class is friday afternoon! Uggg this is so depressing cuz I really want him to go but I also dont wanna make him miss class! I hate this!!!! ok I'm done ranting. so yeahI really cant wait to see my family! I havent seen them since my graduating party! oh boy do I iss them!! And I'm going to Marty's house to die my and his hair/roots! woot! well I gotta get back to work!

I love you with all my heart... I dont know how to show or explain it. I want to hold you so bad it hurts. It kills me to be away from you for a day... I hate it! I never wanna leave your side. I wanna be with you forever! Sometimes I feel like I just bring you down, or wind you up so bad that you cant relax... I feel like I'm being so selfish sometimes. Like I dont let you or I make you feel guilty for doing something without me. And I hate myself for doing that! I dont ever want to make you feel bad cuz you wanna do something elece.... and I dont want my opinion to hurt you, Its just how I see it from the outside.. I dont know if i'm right... Its just how I see it. I just wanted to tell you how much you mean to me. How evertime you hold me I feel better. You make me feel safe. I hope I do the same for you... I see the most Love I have ever seen in your eyes. I know you'll never hurt me, and I hope you know I will NEVER hurt you. You treat me like a goddess... and I have so much love, and I wanna give it all to you! You are my one and only... my true Love... my soul mate! I just wanted to tell you and the whole world that!! (or at least the ppl who read this) hee hee
I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL MARTY! I never wanna let you go! =^-^= *kisses*

Yeah! Its 2:30 in da mornin and I cant sleep.... Well I guess I'll tell you how my day went! Woo Hooo!! Its story time!!!! So yeah well my day started at 12pm, I went upstairs to see if there was some food... there wasnt =( and that sucked! I asked where my mom was and my dad said at a bridal shower. so that was cool. I went up to CVS to buy some tampons (woo hooo =/ugg) then I called my big brother to tell him that I was going to the mall. So I went to the mall to see if Hottopic had my boots in my size, and of course they didnt =(... Then my mom called me and told me to meet her at Mijers(sp) so I said ok.. then I was on my way! So I got to mijers and we had to go to layway so I could put some money on my bathroom stuff! Well that took forever! Then I called Marty to see if he wanted to see me today after he got done working. He said no cuz him and Steve were gonna chill when he was done. That made me depressed.... but I decided to take my bro. Fred to dountown A2... We had a lot of fun! We went to pinball pete's and we spent 20$ on games! ugg now I have no money =(( sooo sad... oh well.. And when I got home my big brother and his girlfriend were fighting. I hate to hear them fight! Expeshally when its over stupid shit that dont me anything! So stupid... Well Marty is suposto come over tomarrow but I dont know what time hes gonna get up so I have no Idea how much time I get to spend with him... I want to go to the Lake or something so I can get wet and actually swim... I miss swiming... its so much fun and its relaxing. But that all depends on when Marty comes over... I dont think I'll be going, and Its not because of him, Its more of the money issue... Well I guess I should try to get some sleep, but I probably go read some more of the new manga that I bought. Six more books to go! Woot! =) =^-^= goodnight!

So yeah, I'm waiting for work to let me out!!! I have the biggest damn Migrane in the world and I cant wait to see my marty! I get to see him soon *dose dances* Me and My BESTFRIEND!!! are sadly drifting apart and we have no way of stoping it cuz were both so bussy. I hate this but there is really nuthin I can do about it. Come to think of it I havent heard from a lot of my old friends... I miss you guys!!!! Jess-bob!!! Sara!!!! Derik!!!! Josh!!!! and all the others that I miss so dearly!!! I love you!!! so yeah work is killing me... and I think I have resless leg sindrome... ugg and its verry painfull.... but Marty helps a lot with that. I have to go to the docters to see whats wrong. I also have to get new glasses cuz both arms broke and I think I need a new persription. I also have to get my wisdom teeh pulled... WOO HOOO yeah! I can't wait! ugggg.... so yeah I have to do all of that befor the end of the year so I dont have to pay for it.!!! Well its time to go... talk to you all later!!!
Huggs and Kisses! =^-^=